darling madeleine still not adopted..

oh lord please save me from these mood swings and emotional attachments and disappointments.. my heart can't take it.. i'm 27 going on 107 i swear.. soon i'll look it too and then i'll be REALLY upset.. incon-frickin-solable. did you notice that skinny people with round faces look like olives on toothpicks? now imagine the olives drying and shriveling up or rotting and turning soggy.. not a pretty picture either way right.. well that's whats gonna happen to me if i don't start getting more sleep and feeling less stressed. ahhhh my future's sooo bright i need sunglasses..

soooo yesterday a lovely young couple came over to meet maddie. they were looking for a puppy that would get along with their 3 month old female golden retriever pup. i really like this couple. they were very nice, asked all the right questions, gave maddie the space and respect that a dog meeting strangers needs, and took their time getting acquainted with her. they described their experiences growing up with dogs, and how they care for them. very good. they have a house with a large yard and they keep their pets indoors but with lots of outdoor activity. what more could i ask for. they're the type of adopters i hope all my foster kids will spend their lives with.

well... i think maddie was having a bad day or something.. she was being quite disagreeable which is not like her at all. she barked at them, made little growly noises, sniffed them suspiciously, wouldn't let them pet her. that's not like her at all. i can't understand it. usually she's jolly, warm, sweet, and just oozing with puppy cuteness and vibrancy. where did this sudden change in temperament come from? she has been wonderful with everyone that has come into my home and met her. is it possible that she is learning to be territorial and fearful from molly? molly is scared of strangers and displays very aggressive behavior toward them. could maddie have been acting up yesterday because that's what molly does? i don't know. even after i put molly in her room, maddie continued to bark. i had the couple give maddie some treats to show they weren't a threat. still didn't really work.. she'd take the treats then back away nervously eyeing them and bark.

anyway looooong story short.. they left but not before telling me that they were also considering a dog from PAWS. a 2 year old large breed male that was rescued starving from the streets. they had met him at PAWS earlier that day. it sounded like after they met maddie, they were leaning more towards the PAWS dog. well i would never try to deprive another dog of a home. especially an adult one that has suffered so much and could be at risk of being euthanised. if they choose the PAWS dog, that would be wonderful news as well.. they said they'd keep in touch.. but i could tell maddie had not won them over. i'm pretty disappointed. they're great adopters. ah well.. better luck next time i guess..

i gave maddie a pep talk later explaining that i am not her forever mum, and my home is not her forever home and that she needs to help me out coz other puppies and kitties need me to foster them too and are just waiting for a spot. of course by this time she was back to her lovable sweet self.. but the adopters were no longer there to see it. what am i doing wrong with maddie? please advise!!