okayyyyy so today is wednesday. i still haven't released Runty and Stubbs.. Its almost a week past my release deadline. What am i waiting for? I don't know. I just can't let go of them. I'm not emotionally attached to them.. I don't love them like pets.. they hate me anyway.. but i do feel responsible for them and I am still not comfortable with releasing them into the world. Where will they sleep? Where will they go when it rains? How will they know which houses to avoid? How will they know where dogs hang out? How will they know to come back to me everyday for food? What if they get separated? I don't want them to be alone and afraid. Will they know how to look for water sources? ARGHHHHH!!!!!
i suppose i'm still waiting for a miracle.. sometimes when they're eating they let me pet them a little.. of course after a little while they hiss and swipe at me angrily but like, if they let me touch them at all even for a second, does that mean there is even the tiniest possibility that they could one day be tamed? like in another year or so.. i don't know.. but of course i don't want to keep them in that cage for a whole year!! that's too awful. but what if there's a chance they could have a good cozy life if they could be tamed even if it takes long? or should i just release them asap because i'm being unrealistic? so many uncertainties.. damn damn damn