Venting

ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
mood swings mood swings mood swings!! why do you continue to plague me and drive me nuts with your rollercoaster crap? i'm so sick of being peachy one minute and down down downnnnnnnnn the next. damn you malfunctioning brain chemistry! too bad there's no warranty on this thing.. if there was, i'd want a refund!

oooh but on the bright side, today's SPCA PAWTY @ Sid's Pub was an awesome success and super fun! Spike had hot dogs and burger patties and sniffed lots of other dogs' butts.

ok are you beginning to see a pattern in how my mind works?

monday blues

big sighhhhh... its been a little difficult here financially as i continue to try muddling on with all the furkids and fosters.. veterinary bills certainly don't get any more reasonable as time goes on. i wish i could vaccinate and deworm and neuter everyone by myself. i'm also kinda waiting for this new job that i started about 3 months ago to turn out to be everything i thought it would be.. so far it isn't really matching up to what i was promised..that's very frustrating of course because i had hoped that it would help make life a little easier financially but so far is hasn't. in fact it might even be worse. i'm busier, crankier, have to spend more night's out networking, and last saturday night i went to a work related networking event and some nasty disgusting old sleazebag hit on me and groped my ass. Old fuck must've been at least 30 years older than me. he'd totally need a back brace and hip replacement surgery before he could get it on with anyone. *shudder* i thought people would get wiser and classier with age.. i guess its just not that way with everyone.

i don't think i can afford to get santo and tutti frutti vaccinated before this weekend's adoption drives. that means they won't be able to take part. anyways.. something giving me a warm fuzzy feeling right now is luckytoes midnight sitting on my lap. she's not the most affectionate kitty in the world, preferring the company of the other cats, especially fatfat, to the company of humans but for whatever reason she decided to show me some love today. i'm sitting on the couch now in front of the tv and luckytoes is snuggling up against me with her head on my lap. she actually jumped up on the couch on her own, and just came to me and plonked herself down. normally she is nowhere near this area of the house, she likes it upstairs where the dogs aren't allowed to go. maybe the little weirdo does love me after all.. whatever her reason, this is a nice quiet moment we're sharing. i wonder if this will be the only time we will be as cozy as this or if this is the first of many..

i think we need ANIMAL RESCUE stickers..

hey y'all.. yeah i know that sounds dorky but i like saying "y'all" :)

so at first i was going to write up another cranky, angst-ridden, super PMSey, bitchy post.. but then i took a nap with a cat that bit me four times as i drifted off to sleep and somehow that made me feel better. my brother's cat Grumps is a strange one. he'll just bite for no reason whatsoever then settle down and cuddle up. my right arm has little red welts all over. sorry i digress.. anyway i'm going to be calm and mature now. i was super angry earlier.

i left work early today and drove over to my parents' place. on the way there i saw a cat lying on the roadside. i was driving too fast (i was on the highway) and couldn't just come to an immediate stop so i went a huge round and came back to the cat driving slower and with my hazard lights on. i pulled over at the side, opened the car door (cat was at driver's side luckily) and just reached down to touch it and have a better look. turns out kitty was dead.. looked very recent, still a little soft.. no blood at all no injuries but hey i had to check to be sure. if the cat was alive it would've needed medical attention. so anyway while i was doing this, which only took a few seconds, the annoying obnoxious impatient rude ass fuck in the car behind me was honking. i was like WTF FUCKFACE?? and i stood up and gave the guy the finger. seriously just took a few seconds to slowly pull over alongside the cat and touch it to see if it was alive. the guy was honking as if he had to take the dump of his life. that pissed me off like you cannot believe. i had pulled over on a road curving right and he was right behind me (driver's sit on the right here) so he could clearly see that i was checking on an animal. plus, unless he's some illiterate fuck, he could see all the SPCA stickers on my car. there are FIVE. like put the pieces together moron. its not rocket science. so anyway i started driving again, lowered my window and gave him the finger again then i waited for him to go ahead of me so i could chase after his car and honk all the way. that made me feel better :)

anyways i was thinking that aside from having stickers that say SPCA or whatever ngo all of you volunteer for... we should all have stickers that would CLEARLY INDICATE TO STUPID PEOPLE what is happening when we pull over with our blinky flashy lights on. something that says EMERGENCY ANIMAL RESCUE or ANIMAL RESCUE IN PROGRESS.. whatever.. stickers or signs.. get me? for the dumbfucks on the road who do not understand that a chick pulling over on the frickin highway and touching a dead cat is not doing so just for fun.

oh look my post became cranky and angry again.. i should work on that..

all animals deserve love and care

you know what bothers me? people who call themselves animal lovers but only have love for purebred/pedigree animals. that's just the hugest load of crap ever. its like saying you'd only love your child if you knew it was going to grow up to be a supermodel. i want to know where the compassion is in that? there are tons of hypocrites like that in malaysia. people are always going around claiming to be animal rescuers/volunteers and blah blah blah... but when you actually talk to them, they have like a siberian husky, 3 rhodesian ridgebacks imported from australia, an irish setter, an afghan hound, and would NEVER EVER adopt a mutt. so, only inbred animals are worthy of love and care? fuck that. that's bullshit. compassion my ass.

oh and before i forget. here's a big "fuck you up the ass with a sharp stick" to the guy that commented on molly's adoption profile last year on petfinder.my and said that i should put her down because no one would want a 3-legged mutt. i hope you lose a leg and your family opts to put you down coz you're just too darn troublesome and ugly.

Super cranky & PMSing.. I need to b***ch

hola amigos,
those of you that have been following know that when it comes to animal welfare, Malaysia is the frickin toilet of the world.. and not even a nice toilet.. a fly-infested, shit-filled hole in the ground. At least NGOS like SPCA Selangor and Malaysian Dogs Deserve Better manage to spread the news about the plight of dogs here.. It just occurred to me, that conditions in farms where animals are bred for slaughter must be unthinkable. I bet there are no bloody standards or guidelines.. or even if there are, no one follows them and officials are easily bribed to look the other way. i feel like barfing just thinking about it. and here's why i feel worse, yesterday night, i ate a burger. i'm such a sucky wannabe vegetarian. i was starving after getting stuck in floods and bloody traffic for two hours so i went to a burger king drive-thru and ordered a double mushroom swiss burger meal. i hate meat. i used to love it and still crave it sometimes.. but eating it always leaves me feeling guilty and grossed out. i always have to remember the faces and expressions of animals i have seen and remind myself about the horror and massacre they go through before they end up as neatly packaged pieces of meat. i have to see meat for what it is; the decaying flesh of a sentient animal. its a long process.. and i actually eat a lot less now than i used to simply cause there's nothing to eat anymore. i'm not a big fan of vegetables. but eh, i'll survive.

also i want an answer to a question that i have asked many people about my molly's little stump half-leg.... to amputate or not to amputate? that is the question.. ok that was lame. OMG that was lame too! and really, no pun intended, that would like be in badddd taste. i'm sleepy and my jokes take a turn for the worse.. so anyway.. yeah like every vet i've spoken to says i should go ahead and get the stump amputated because molly doesn't need it and it just gets dirty and stuff. i'm super squeamish though and it sounds just awful to me.. i have a very vivid imagination and i can't help trying to envision the operation. couldn't it be ok to just leave a stump alone? just leave it there? ok true, she does use it for leverage sometimes.. and that's not good.. when she runs too fast or plays too excitedly, she balances on the stump.. sometimes it gets bruised and scabby.. i already tried cushioning it with baby socks and bandages.. she doesn't like that. anyway she's totally indoors so she doesn't get scratched up on roads or anything.. i just don't want to put her through anything unless its ABSOLUTELY necessary. like, if you guys think that there's nothing majorly wrong with her having her stump then... i don't see why i should put her through such a huge operation. input? thanks